Bit on victimhood and self-destruction (clever title):

The appeal of victimhood is that it precludes any possibility of the victim being wrong. Any flaws that a person might have become the property of other individuals or the world as a whole.

Self-destruction is the act of making one's self into a victim. As long as a person's method of self-destruction admits the destructor an illusion of control over their own decimation, this also turns the victim into their own destructive force.

Ergo: The self-destructive individual destroys their flaws, and any instances of being wrong or inadequate, while being their own tormentor. Naturally, being a destructive force is a flaw. It's possible to block this fact out of one's own consciousness, but it isn't really necessary. While you're destroying yourself, it's easy to imagine that you're destroying the destructive force as well. After all, once you've destroyed all of yourself there will be no more tormentor. Everything will be gone.

Self-destruction can become a path to ending self-destruction. It can seem like a saviour, a redeeming force in life. It's how you kill your demons, even if the demon happens to be the self-destruction itself.

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I've spoken in generalities in all of this, but I think it applies to several things. Suicide, anorexia, self-injury. Name it, really.

It isn't ever the only reason, even when the inclinations towards these methods of thinking/acting are present. Self-destruction never starts from the urge for self-destruction, there are always other catalysts. But it's one reason. I know it applied to me, to a certain extent, and that alone makes it truth enough to put here.

Excuse me while I go eat some ice.

revoless.
5:36 a.m.
November 07, 2003.
Listening to: Fuck.

comments? 2.

Thank you or Fuck, my therapist was right. Again

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